Love Now, A Poem for Ryan Dominic DeAndrea
7-22-82 – 3-16-05
If I could take all your pain away, I would.
If I could change the outcome, I would.
If I could take your place, I would.
If my love could bring you back, it would.
If I could have been a better mom, I would have.
But could and would are
Never going to change what has happened.
Could and would are never going to
Heal my heart or dry my tears.
Could and would are never going to let me kiss
You, hug you, or say "I love you" again.
If I could change her words to you, I would.
If I could have made her love you, I would have.
If I could make her feel your pain, I would
If I could ask her why, I would
If I could have listened better, I would have.
But could and would are never going to make you come back.
Could and would are never going change what they did to you
Could and would are words that are bittersweet now.
If I could make them see the
Excessive force they demonstrated, I would.
If I could make them feel what you felt, I would
If I could make them see how frightened you were, I would
If I could make them see this was not justified, I would
But could and would are what should keep them awake at night,
Knowing they took your life needlessly,
Because could and would are tearing me apart.
I will love you unconditionally always and forever.
I miss you more and more each passing day, if that is possible.
You will forever be my baby and my son. I love you!